Success, Energy, Family

My dog just jumped up on my lap. He's not little but "Boy" is a medium -sized dog and he's a clown. LOL I'm lazy these past few days. I just can't get all I want done. I like to do what feels good. Sometimes the 'comfort zone' is not the place to be when you want success in your life to happen. Focusing on the goal is not easy when your mind goes into a blurring of thoughts. You want to succeed, so you rise up and get moving. I'm disappointed in the kind of mail I'm getting lately. I look forward to getting it every day. I do surveys online and after I get to make $5, $10, or $20; I can redeem my points and get a check sent. That's the kind of mail I like to get, lol. "The check is in the mail". ha. Yes. Also, helps get through the hard times when there is no cash on hand.

I wanted to write a little about energy and my family. The one affects the other for me. I don't see any of them and miss them . No one calls me. I know they all have their own lives and it's not all about 'me'. Well, I get to thinking about them and it gets me down. Everyone wants to be accepted by their own but maybe it will never happen. My energy level has been low the past couple of days, compared to the days around the full moon we just had. I guess the holidays are the worst because when we were younger, we went through them all together. It was great times, great food. I don't think we wanted for anything. It has been 14 years since I have seen my dad. I wish I could see him. We didn't actually get along when I became a teenager but we have an understanding of sorts. I know he loves me and he knows I love him. Tomorrow is my mother's birthday. Last year her birthday was on Easter a once in a lifetime event. Like, I will be 54 this year and was born in 1954. LOL That's not exactly the same thing, lol. So, I will call her. She lives in Arizona also but she has been divorced from my father since I was 26. My siblings will never forgive me over a legal matter I tried to get them in regarding my mother. The lawyer was the one who tried to get me to get them included. The whole thing which at first I thought was a good idea backfired. My mother is extraordinary. I have seen her through some very major things in the past 14 years. One she was almost killed in an accident with her van, pulled through that and the physical therapy that followed. Then not long ago she went through brain surgery to remove an angioma, the size of a half a grapefruit, at Mayo Clinic. They had to cut off the blood supply to the brain. She ended up learning how to do everything all over again. This was the hardest things I've een her go through, besides the divorce between her and my dad, the passing of her 2nd husband and these two other major events. To really understand how I feel about her you would have to know, that when she was in her late 40's she went back to school. She ended up with her Master degree in Education with a teaching license in dental hygiene. She did great. Now she lives very well on the retirement. The same thing does not appear to be for me. I just recently tried to get my associates degree and couldn't get through the last 2 classes including college algebra. I'm tired. Time for a nap.

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